in past tense

习惯喜欢去寻找过去式的爱的人，脑子一定有问题吧？
谁能来帮忙呢。。。
你写的歌，是给哪个小姐的呀。。。

又遇见了

I know my good friend is gonna scream at me if I write this on LJ. I am very scared... if I let her know... she will freak out again, and then I'll lose her for good.

如果人生是以倒数计时的话，那我所剩的时间不多了。
生命力像似被吸走般。再多的安慰，还是无法提起精神来。
不能骗大家，更不能骗自己。我已经不活着了。
不是你们的失败，是我被回忆打入了地狱。

如果我无法再见到你，那就让我潜入你的梦境与你再次相遇吧。
这该不会是只属《梦见》专有的特权吧。
当然，我希望从此就活在那梦境中，无忧无悔。

sea

Perhaps if you have been dropped, and forgotten, it should remain the way it is.
I fight too much.
I should let people go, just as they'd let me.


I cannot help but tear at this thought.
Sorry. I have never forgotten the people in my life. It's time for a big accident.

Regrets and blessing

I realised that the old 范逸臣 really looks like Tok Zi Feng.
Gah... why didnt I see that before.
And I missed ah Tok.

It's really a huge disappointment when someone decides to drop you out of his life.
It feels worse than to not have our path crossed at all.
真的好想知道他现在人在何处，在做什么。
But there's no way I can ever find out, because that person has disappeared already.
:( and it's all my fault.
I'm a failure.

Therefore, when Nicholas smsed me out of the blue... I feel fortunate.... blessed that someone somewhere on this planet still remember that I exist.
And so, I must carry on.
This is the only way to show my appreciation.
Probably we've made a pact that each of us knew, but we wouldnt wanna admit it. I miss the people I met and no longer talking to anymore.
But I doubt they remember who I am.
Because I dont too.

And so, I must make another escape soon. Cant wait for UK! Lynn, here I come!