pain

我真不知该如何走出这谷底。
每当我以为我已痊愈，却是陷入更深，难道就不能回头了吗？

It sounds way pathetic, but I can only find consolance when I hide inside the toilet of the office to cry my eyes out. I dont know who to talk to, who can help me, but I dont think I deserve it. Argh, I hate to feel the tears drip down.
I hate this misery emotion running inside of me; alot of times, I wish I really can put down everything, because there's no tomorrow. I guess that will be something new, wont that be?

Please make the headache go away.
Please make me forget everything.
I dont need memories or reminders.

I know I can write this here and not be judged.
Indeed, I've fooled everyone.